Friday, January 29, 2010

silA...urmmm....

sila ketok kepale sayer!!!!!

biler sayer nk sdar diri neyh!!!

btaw...apew yg sdang sayer lakookan ini!!!!

duhai blogku....dgrlah rintihan atikuu ini...hahak...

mood-kekenyangan....
pss-hadapi dgn snyuman....

Thursday, January 28, 2010

hadapi ngan senyuman yer!!!

b'coz beneath dat smile lies 10001 prasaan...

teda sapew tawu...
weee~


apew neyh...x dek kije tol post ini...hahak...
tulon2...bosannyer sayer wat assingment...da dua post da sayer wat......

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

just one more day to breath..
i am grateful for...
the day that i live on today..
i am grateful for...
yesterday that i experience i am grateful for...
for this feelings that i felt...
sad,happy,joy,hurt,bitter,sweet...
i am grateful for..
for every experienced that i gain...
every success n every fall...
i am grateful....
for every people that i meet along my journey....
every person...friends and family...
i am very grateful......
and for me to just live dis day..
i am very grateful...
i should not ask for more...
cuz..
i had every little things dat i ever wanted..
all i need to do is..
too look at it in da right way...
i will not ask for more...
n i will just wait for everytin to happen da way it was supposed to be....
n wif dat...i am very grateful...
thank you..

-cam da buley wat poem kn-

sHort pOSt...

actually i'm in da middle of typing my assingment..
but it is becoming so boring and sleepy looking at those liitle words in da journal..
dat i myself dun really understand...
so here i am..
giving myself a llittle break n decided to write a post..
since all i did in these blog is just uploading my photo recently...
i hav bee quite bz recently..
with wat?? i dunno...
but i dun seem to hav enough timee...
haha...maybe with a little bit of work here n there..
besides...there's a lot of CA coming along my way...
huhu..
haish..pejam celik da almost nk msk bulan dua kan...
wat happens in january???
jeng2....(wat does dat even means)
hurm lately i've been thinkin.....
n thinkin....
i am about to break one promise dat i've made to myself dis year...
will i do it???or maybe i'll wait........
lately i've been gettin da same piece of advice...
"get serious mira!!!"
uh...fine2!!i'm damn serious rite now...
seriously...
no more playin......rumates!!u understand wat dis is all about aite...huhu...


pss-back to da journal...


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

sAya byK kijE tp sayA nk poSt jugaK.....

fuh....pnatnyer ak menyumbat segala bebeln lecturer untk dimskkan kat dlm otakku arineyh..
dkat kul5.30 bawu abes kelas...aduih.....
abes kelas jer balek umah...
weeee~
tros x jadik pnat...heeee....wndooo kat umah lark..
lame da x balik....ececece...padahul x smpai 2 mnggu kot...
huhu....
namooon....pk pnyer pk lar kn..
n stelah mndapt sgala jenis info...
tetibe...
jeng2...
tersedar lar aku dari angan2 ini...
oh noooo!!!!
exam sume da dkat.....
assingment sume da dkat ngan due date...
stady x lagiii...asingment x start lg...
cebok memain jerk slama ini......tp...
kuliah x pahum apew2 lark tue....
apew neyh mira oiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mulai dari saat ini.....
saya da x mawu maen2 lagiiii..........
saya nk seyes!!!seyes in everytin...
btol2...pcayerla sayer....
saya nk start wat kije la neyh........
btol....saya bukak laptop neyh pown sbb nk taip assingment...
postin ini kije smpingan ajer....
saya nk pg wat kije lar neyh........
otw....
k daaaa.........-off to do my work-

Monday, January 18, 2010

sometin2 dat has to let oUt...

after eatin ubat batok n ubat selsema dat aisyah gave me...
i guess..there is still a little flu n a bit couging......
when will it go away...
dis past few days has been very hectic...
yet...still no work had been done...
too much work dat i delayed..
now..
which one should i start first??
as for today...
still...a bit bz untill tonite...fuh...
i'm gonna go n survey for flowers dis evenin......
4 our project n alll..
yappari...we r gonna be sellin flowers...cooo cweet...
still...
i read sumtin really hurtful today......
how should i respond to it??
mira...
listen to ur heart...n wat it says...
u have been very strong dis past years...
focus on ur work n ur study only......
sucessful is da only way u can redeem urself....
wat goes around r history...
human r full of imperfection...
mistakes...lies...truth...revenge...emotion...n all...
its easier to be expreessed in words than actually to hold on to da words...
even when they mean well...but it end up to be wrong.....
our biggest enemy is our emotion n feelin..
b'coz of dis...dis is da thing dat will lead to our sucess or our fall......
stop foolin around wif da crazy little imagination in ur brain....
dis is da last time...
n i will really...really stop believing......
n now..there's no more.......

jeng2...maka penin lar sume org yg mmbace blogku nnti n trtanya2..
apakah mksod suma itoo...wee~
n di kesempatan ini..
huhu...aku n rumate2 ku n yg seangkatn dgnnyer yg telah trlibat dalam
pakatan2 kamiii..
ingn mntak maaf n ampun krana..jeng2...
explorace???adoyai....
mntak maaf...kami trpaksa berbwat dmikian..
oleh krana jika x silapkuu adew exco2 yg incharge explorace tue follow blogku..
maka..
x leh lar nk critakn apew yg jadik..weee~
n mlm2 interfaith itoo??
itoo sala..urm...no komen...
hahak..
yg pnting....skalung kemaafan..berbwat jahut ada blasannyer..
adoyai...tidak!!ya ampun...lalala~


Friday, January 15, 2010

adoyai...dua ari laloo hanya slesema...
arineyh da batok lark..
wats next???
neyh la akibatnye minom float..pastu minom ice blended lg..
x sdar2 dr sakit tekak...weee~
pdn mkerkuuu.....
td abagku kate ak malnutritient????
huh???
biar btol..padahul bawu balek mkn a&w kn td..
cner lark ley jd x cukop nutritient neyh...
trlbey adew...
huhu...
uh..nmpaknyer rumatekoo aisyah telah berjangkit dgnkuu..
weee...
hahak...yes!!da adew geng...
sorry aisyah...jgn salakn kuuu...

uhuhuhuk....

Thursday, January 14, 2010

selAgi jantuNg ini beRdeguP......

today...in psycology classs....our lecturer talks bout her mother...
motherhood n marriage n stuff like dat...
it makes me realize....i never told my mother how much i luv her..
does my action reflect my feelin??
does she knoe how much i really luv her....
do i knoe how much she loves me??
thinkin bout it...she never ever told me how much she loves me...
i knoe she will not read my blog...
so she wont knoe wat i write in here...
mama.....
i spent my life for 20 years wif u...
never went to boarding school...
going to da unibesity 10 minutes from home..
going grocery shopin wif u...
going to da bank wif u...
buying clothin wif u..
going to lunch date wif u...
listening to all your feelin n emotion...
knowin wat u like n wat u dislike...
i knoe u....too much....
i knoe every little details bout u...more than your other child knoe u...
i'm da one who knows u best...
i knoe it when u r down,sad,epy or just when u wanted sumtin....
most of my time i spent wif u....
i cherish it..
though sumtime i need time for myself...
n sumtime i'm too busy wif my campus life..
i sumtime complain when u need me too much....
but i do try to be wif u..to go out wif u...n to be there for u..
i do think bout u..a lot...even sumtimes i dun hav da time to call u...
i'm sorry dat sumtime i hav to raise my voice to u..
n i'm sorry dat sumtime i had to lie to u...
but there is some things that i can't let my self share wif u...
i luv spending time wif u...though sumtime i like to be left alone..
but deep in my heart i knoe u would understand me...u do aite??
i am who i am now b'coz of u..
i kept on living da day b'coz of u..
everytine is b'coz of u...
i knoe dat u're old now...
but never in my life i could imagine spending my day without ur presence...
could i face dat day??never once i want to think bout it..
but i knoe dat day will come.....
u're my best friend...u giv me those warm feelin..
when i'm down..i will go to ur room just to be wif u...
i will be there for u...n stay near u...
but knoe dis mother...i too has my own dream....
so i'm sorry if sumtime i neglected u.....
i feel guilty evrytyme i foget bout u...
n knoe dis mother..
though i knoe there is almost no chances that u will read dis...
but...
selagi jangtung ini berdegup...aku menyayangimu.....
mencntaimu spenuh ati ini...
n akan brada dkat dgan mu...slaloo....
4eva n always....ececece..
posting yg feelin gitoo...(dilakookan smasa gap)...wee~

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

wAt is dIs feElin???.............

wah...since i just got home from an interview...n since it is almost midnyte..
so...i am cccoooo damn lazy to study..
n i end up rite here..
in front of dis laptop..
pressing da keyboard n tryin to write a story......
today is a very long n tiring day...
attending classes which i dun even understand...
da only class dat i've been paying attention to is da oral health class..
weee~wat do i get from dat class????
i need to go n register for a dental checkup..pronto!!!wee~
y???b'coz...my gingiva...(ececece)..yg brmakne gusi saya...weee....slaloo brdarah bler syer gocok gg.....
uh...x moh dpt pnyakit goosi...tkot!!!
weee...ok maybe tellin a story bout my teeth n my mouth is bowink..huhu...
hurmm.....
hey...i used to post about my feelin in my older post..
wat is dat feelin u ask???
dat bittersweet feelin!!!it came again today..
i mean...it came tonite..
y???
i dun even knoe y...
i just happens to feel dis way...
n this blog is where i express dis feelin...wee~
x pe lar kn..kmana lagi ingin ku luahkn apew yg trbuku di ati ini...ececeece..
padahul da mcm2 crita tlah ku lontarkn kpd rumatekuuu ini kn..
smpai meke da x moh lyn da diri ini..
tue yg lpas kat blog lark kn...
heee~
tilll then.....

Friday, January 8, 2010

fAir enOugh....

today i went to dis talk show about youth...
n there is dis one saying dat actually caught my attention which is

"TREAT PEOPLE DA WAY U WANT YOURSELF TO BE TREATED"

huhu...dun u think so????
it makes me thinkin..if u really wanted people to treat u well...
u should also treat people well aite..
dun blame others if u get hurt or if people r being impolite to u..
it maybe..
b'coz of wat u did in da past...
who said dat da world is not being fair to us........
we get wat we deserve...
if u treat people like shit...
u'''ll be treated like shit!!harsh word...oppsy...
so....how do i treat people throughout my life??
hurmmm...i guess in some way i do treat people nicely n politely...ececece..
but in some other way...i might hav hurt a few feelings in my journey...
so from now on....
i wanted to be treated nicely n politely..n i wanted to meet nice people along da way....
i should begin treating people da same way i wanted to b e treated...
yeess!!!a new azam for me..hee~

psss-should i??or shouldn't i???......uh..kacau bilau...hahak...
treat people da way u wanted to be treated!!!!!!!!!!!!


Wednesday, January 6, 2010

bYk cKP???....sAla ka....~

org bilang mereka yg ada tahi lalat dibibir snyumannya manis.....
hakikat yg smemangnyer benar sama skali...heee~
org bilang lg...mereka yg ada tahi lalat di bibir byk ckp.....
hakikt yg benar!!!namoon sukar diakui....huhu.....
iya..itooolah aku..
bertahi lalat dibibir...mmpunyai senyuman yg manis...eceecece...(biar ah blog cndirk..poooji dr cndirik ah!!!) dan bilang org............tet........
lalalala....teringat cmalam...tatkala azam aku n romate ku yg membara untok
mngubah cara idop,tabiat n mndapatkn bntok bdn ala2 model gitooo(kering..heee~)
kamii keluar berjogging...jgn sala anggap...
memng aktiviti ini claloo kami jalnkn..namooon...
cmalam aktiviti jogging ini kami lakookn didlm ujan yg mmbasahi susuk tuboh kami...shekksi gitoo..
disbbkn ujan...maka x rmai ah jejaka yg turon untok berjogging...x jamoo mata smalam...hee~guraw2...
cont...maka...spanjang di jogging trek...aku tidak berkata apa2 krana aku pown mnjadik spechless tatkala pnat berlari2 ayam..heee...
namoon stelah tamat jogging trek itooo dan stelah brehat seketika disebatng pokok smentara menunngu roomateku...maka!!!kembalilah smula tnaga batinku ini...hehe..
spanjang perjalanan pulang ke hostel..
pelbagai crita ak lontarkn kpd rumateku..blablablabla..
namoon...tiada respon dari mreka...knapa??
dgn muka ala2 kpenatan yg tramat ala2 org bawu pas branak gitooo...rumateku hanya mengangguk segala critakuu...
tiba2 satoo ksedaran muncol dibenak atiku ini...terlaloo byk ckpkah akuuu???...
heee...maka ku lontarkn persoaln itpoo kpd rumate tercnta...
tnpa mngira soal ati n prasaan ku yg kebal ini..teros mreka mnjwb..YA!!!!
mmng sbelom ini byk kali mreka mnyuroh ak diam didlm bilek..
dah la byk ckp...suare kuat lark tue..adoyai....btol2 mngganggu konsentrasi mreka untok blajo nota2 prof farid..ngee~iya ka????
namoon...apakn daya....masalah genetik yg smemangnya diwarisi turon tmuron...haha...
huhuhu.....jadik ksimpulannya kpd rumate2 n kwn2 ku..
bersabrlar..n trimala dirikuu seadannya..hee~
pntingkah post ini???x kot...skadar mngisi masa lapang...
lapangkah akoo??tidak!!!!namoonnn...apakan daya..
aku wanita biasa..heee~lagoo kris dayanti gitooo...ececece...
daa~

Sunday, January 3, 2010

harI yg mALang......

i am jiNx!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.......................

Friday, January 1, 2010

loST????~

wHere diD i gO wrOng i lOst a

frIend????~


mnghAdapi nGan pNOh tabAH...ecece~

wah2...bace post tittle cam besh jer kn...
post taon bawu ku ini dalam bm yer...huhuhu..
mlm neyh..mlayan cter jiwang n lagoo jiwang....lagoo apew??anang-separuh jiwakoo pergl...itookah spatotnyer dilakookn pada mlm taon bawu ini...huhu...n plus2 da ciap assingment prof farid...
tnggal nk lukis jer..ntah apew yg ak bebelkn lam katas A4 tue..
cian ketas A4 yg x bersalah itoo mnjadik mangsa kekarotan aku terhadap esophagus dan hard palate yang aku cndirik pown x taw sejaoh manekah kbenaran faktaku itoo..hahak...
lantaklar......2010????wah2!!!da 20 taon...
dalM taon 2009....drpd KMNs beralih kPd usM...
namoon sepeerti biase...mamakuu masih x dpt mnerima hakikat yg ank bongcunyer ini suda beso..
n aku juga sepeti x dpt blagak sebagai seorang wanita yg dewasa...
tetap dgn kmanjaan n kegedikan ku yg terlampau..
iya..akoo mngakoo ak terlaloo mnja n gedik2...namoon apakan daya..
itoolah akoo...tp ketahuilah disebalik smua ini...
pikirannku kian matang n cerebellum n cereberumku kian mematangkn diriku...
dengan bermulanya taon 2010 ini...
apew yg brada dalam pikirankoo???
memndangkn umorku telah brubah dari belasan taon mnjadi puluhan taon..ecece..
maka......
tntoolah ak juga tidak ktinggalan untok merungkai serta menanam smangat bawooo..
apakah smangat bbarooku itoo??
itoolah masalahnyer..
aku maseh tidak dpt merungkap apew yg bermain2 diminda inii dan mentransfomasikannyer kedalam bentok perkataan...
namoon yg akuu tawu...jika ianya adalah tentng plajaran....
smestinyer ak nk blaja rajen cket..dmi menaikkan pointer aku yg trsgt low itoo..
kaloo dari segi prangai...smestinyer ak mawu lbey mematangkan diriku yg seringkali
dikatakn kurang matang ini..
kalu dari segi fizikal??smestinya ak ingin menguroskn badan cdikit..
selari dgn azam romate2 ku kini yg sgt berkobar2 ingin menuronkn berat bdn mreka...
maka..azam mreka turot mnjadi azamku...
dari segi perhbungan???tntoolah ingin mngekalkn status bujangku yg telah lama ak pgg..
dan status ini kini telah mnjadi trademark rmai rmaja2 pada masa kini...
kbanyakan kwn2ku telah berjaya mengakhiri zaman married mereka....kecian........
serta...
dikesempatan ini....aku juga ingin belajar berjimat n mngurangkan kapasiti almarikuu yg teroverload itoo dgn memberi bajoo2 yg tidak pernah ku pakai itoo kepada org len..
sapa??itoo ak serahkn kpda mamaku...heee~
dikesempatan ini...kpda kwn2ku yg sering menjejakkan mata diblogku ini..
aku ingin memnta maaf jika adew mlakookan ksalahn...
serta pernah terumpat...ecece...tr???padahul memng saje ngumpat kn...hehe..
opppsy..mintak maaf lar....
dgn itooo...dgn rasminyer berakhirlah post taon bawookuuu......